This is KD's life

Uhhhh

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 18:44:19 GMT

I unofficially moved out of my dorm today. I am really sad, but it was just not working out. When I went to get some more of my stuff, around noon, my roomate and her boyfriend were sleeping in her bed and then my roomate's friend and her boyfriend were sleeping in my bed. So I felt really uncomfortable AGAIN so I left my shit there and hopefully I can go get it on Sunday. I plan to take my dad and make him go wicked early just to piss my roomate off. hehe. I dont think my dad would go in the room though with 2 couples sleeping. Everyone keeps asking me why I am not staying at school anymore. Please stop asking me, I dont really like to talk about it. The truth is, I feel like a fucking loser staying at home. Yeah I could just get another roomate, but this experience has been horrible and I dont feel like I am ready to take on another roomate. Maybe next year I will live in the dorms again. I guess I shoulda said more to my roomate about how I felt with what she did, but I don't think it would have mattered. She was just plain disrespectful of me. But she was nice, just disrespectful. Like after I asked her not to have people in my bed, she continued to do so and did not even apologize. She would spill a shit load of water all over my microwave and refridgarator and just leave it. Her sick friends stole my shit. The thing that topped it off was I walked in the room and her friend's boyfriend was sleeping in my bed. After I asked her not to! What kinda fucker does that? And I was sitting at my computer trying to study and her and her boyfriend were making out for an hour and the slurping noises made me sick. She knows I am not there all the time so why does she have to have sex with her boyfriend when I am a foot away from her? Does she think I like to hear them making out? Haha, but this is a funny part. My mom was wicked mad that this has all been happening (probably because I called her everyday and cried) so she called like the head of housing and complained! She actually thought they were going to give her money back. I guess she said "You know I am paying full price for college and her roomate is getting complete funding because she is Russian and her roomate is failing everything. So in truth I am paying for her roomate to make my daughter's life miserable." Haha I love my mom. She is just a little whacked sometimes. They told her that I should go to my RA, well let's see....considering I only see my RA like once and month AND she is getting suspended or something because she was caught drinking underage...UM no I am not going to my RA and be a pussy and say "My roomate is a bitch." Instead I will just be an even bigger pussy and move out. RARRR I just had to let that all out.

i think i may be sick

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 20:28:58 GMT

okay so i am sitting here with my roomate and her new boyfriend behind me. They are laying in the bed making love and I am stuck right here in this chair because if I get up to leave I would have to walk right by the bed. From the corner of my eye I see that his legs are up. I am so fucking mad right now. All I hear is this disgusting slurping and sucking noise. Then after the slurping noise goes on for awhile her boyfriend starts to loose his breath and starts breathing heavily out of his nose. I swear I am only two feet away from them. I have never been so embarrassed and mad in my life. Now they are whispering while I am typing away. Obviously if they are whispering they are talking about me and probably talking about getting me to leave. Well I have NO WHERE TO GO. This is my room too so why should I leave. I feel so uncomfortable right now. I want to cry and leave, but either way it will be even wierder. Why is she doing this to me? Should I leave? It has been going on for about a half hour now. I am a pussy and too chicken to ask them to stop. I have a test tomorrow so I was studying but the slurping noises got so intense I had to start typing so the noise would be in the background instead of the main music. I am so madddddd. This is why I am fucking live at home next semester. I hate roomates. Oh god now they changed positions...MAKE IT STOP. I am so sick to my stomach right now. But I am NOT leaving. I am gone everyweekend...they can have sex then. For now, it is my room too!

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 02:08:03 GMT

I feel like I am being corrupted. Since the start of the 5 day dorm life, my perfectness has gone down the drain. Like for example, I just made hot chocolate and noticed there was a little bit of dust at the bottom. Instead of cleaning it I decide the hike to the bathroom is much too far and I would rather drink out of a dusty cup, which i am doing. I also stirred my hot chocolate with a spoon I ate my peaches with...YESTURDAY! I am so gross. I was lacking a pair of socks the other day so instead of just wearing sandles, I rumanged through my hamper and found some socks. haha. At my house, I vaccuumed my room everyday. Here I vaccuum it when I am bored or when there is a lot of noticable crumbs. The dust problem at umass is unbearable. There is no way around it, but instead of me dusting everyday, I only dust maybe once every two weeks. I am falling apart. Oh! and I eat umass food. I usually get a tuna sandwich everyday and at the end of the week they get wicked nasty and soggy and instead of not eating, I eat the soggy sandwich. I find myself taking naps like crazy. I by far exceed the average college student's sleep. Oh and I am so poor, for breakfast this morning, I was short 10 cents from everything in the vending machine except a roll of mints, so that was my breakfast...I shoulda just resorted to the dc.I am very greatful for the fact that tomorrow is FRIDAY. I adore Fridays. I have a 50 minute class and then I zip home and spend all of friday, saturday, and sunday in the comfort of my own home.

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 22:21:29 GMT

Today, for animal science lab, we went to a dairy farm. It was gross. Why would anyone want to be a dairy cow worker? Well I understamd if you were born into a family and had a huge farm in your backyard you are kinda obligated to run it when your folks die, but I mean sick. Anyways, I saw two baby cows that were born only 3 hours ago. And then as soon as the cows are born to the mothers, they immediatly take them away and put them in dog houses. It's so weird. I can not even explain it. I wanted to pick up a cow, put it under my sweatshirt, sneak it on the bus, and keep it in my dorm room, but a few things held me back. They like to poop on their tails, my roommate might mind, and I hate cows. Well now I am off to anthropology (the class where the teacher is a "transman").

I never mentioned....

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 02:42:15 GMT

Last week, for my animal science lab, we had to stick our hand in a fistulated cow and pull out some hay. Fistulated...haha thats a funny word, but anyways it was so cool. Cows have 4 stomachs and then a rumen. The cow swallows his food almost whole and it stays in the rumen until he regurgitates it and then he chews it for the second time. So when this cow was born they cut a hole into her rumen and put a piece of plastic around it so it would not close. So now the cow is 20 years old and us umass student get to stick our hand into her. It was soo cool. When I dove my hand in, well actually my whole arm went in, she started to contract her stomach and my arm was almost stuck in the cow! haha. it was so funny. and then the point was to go in and pull out the juiciest sample we could get. I pulled my sample out and it was not too juicy. But the girl after me went in and pulled out a sample that was dripping with juice. My lab manuel was on the ground and she walked by it and spilled the juice all over my manuel! Well I paid 40 bucks for that damn thing, so since no one saw the glove dripping all over my book, I swoopped it up and pretended nothing happened.

Current Update

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 21:19:32 GMT

Well, sorry I have not written in like 2 months. I know you guys have been checking my journal and cussing when you see I have not updated. haha. Anywho, I guess I should talk about UMASS. My old roomate (the one from Argentina) left me. Dont worry I am not upset. She was so rude. Let me list her rude traits:
-Comming in my room at 3 in the morning with friends when I am sleeping and being wicked loud
-Always being loud when I am sleeping, throwing stuff on the floor, banging stuff against the wall
-Snoring like it is her job
-Eating alot
-Pretending to throw a whole meal away and then eat another one when really I would go in her trash and see that she ate the WHOLE meal and just wanted me to think she didn't have two meals

Okay so she left because she said Orchard Hill was too quiet for her and that she wanted to live in the crazy towers because thats more of her life style. In other words, she is a crazy drunk. So my new roomate came and she is okay. A roomate is a roomate. I hate roomates.

I am not doing so well in my classes. I try my hardest. I swear. I had to drop math because I was doing so bad. I suck at life. I will never make it into vet school, but it is fun to dream.

Umass kinda sucks. Some of the teachers suck. I have a tranvestite for a teacher. It even told us that it was one. We are not sure what it is, but we think it was born a woman, had the sex change and now is a man. But it could be a man by birth and dresses up like a woman, but why would he need to share that kind of information with us?? So now in class, I sit there examing this person trying to figure out what it is. Well the first name IS Helan....

I do not like a lot of people in my major. They either are wicked rich and own huge million dollar barns with tons of horses and they walk around with their noses in the air and are mean to me. Or they are dirty people that wear barn sneakers and huge carhartt jackets to class. Where is the medium? Like maybe owns one horse, wears decient clothes to class, but might occasionaly wear barn clothes if AT THE BARN.

Lora B. is having a grand time. I like visiting her. She puts a smile on my face. She lives in the crazy towers, but not by choice. She gets to live on a floor that has all people from her major!! It is soo cool. I envy her, like the Yankees envy the Red Sox. She has so much fun up on the 10000000th floor.

I like to go home on the weekends for numerous reasons. I would stay here and party my red socks off, but I have priorities at home. Like:
-my family
-my rabbit
-my horse
-my best friend Bridget

I like going home. What can I say. I get good food, sleep in a clean bed which I know that my roomate did not have complete strangers sleep in, take a shower withough wearing water shoes because I dont want to pick up any foot fungus, and I get to wake up to the sweat smell of cleanliness unlike my nasty dorm room.

I saw Raffi a few times. I like him. He makes me laugh my socks off.

Well I must mention.......GO RED SOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 MORE GAMES BOYS!!! HANG IN THERE SCHILLING!! I LOVE YOU AND I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR ANKLE AND THEN MAKE WILD SEX WITH YOU.

.....wait a tick...if i hear a girl with a high pitch voice screaming "ooohhh awwwww ooohhhh" and i notice that it sounds like a bed in being banging up against the wall does that mean my neighbors are having sex?????????? GO ERIC!! jk thats fucking sick. stop it now.

Lewis Black

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 03:22:28 GMT

I just went to go see Lewis black with a few people. Now let me first off tell you that I hate comedians. I never find them funny. Well today I deceided to give it a try (well if I didnt I would have just ended up sitting in my room) and he was so fucking funny. I almost shit my fucking pants because he is the funniest fucker around. Now you all are probably wondering why I am excessivly using the word fuck. The answer is because Lewis Black secessfully uses the words "fuck, pussyfeather, and fuckers" in every sentence he says. I can not get over how funny he was. I cant even describe the jokes he said. He talked about Bush, gays, camels marrying men, fuckers in general, and so much more. Well I will update later, for now I must watch my fish. His name is Skyler and he is the only thing in this room keeping me sane. Oh yeah, and durning this comedy thing someone fucking DISSED AEROSMITH. WHO THE FUCK DISSED AEROSMITH?? THEY ARE THE CORE OF ROCK AND FUCKING ROLE. oh and I saw Jamie from Westfield up here at Umass. She's really nice.

My roomate

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 18:57:16 GMT

Well my roomate came today. Her name is Sara and she was originally from Argentina. She nice. We went to a poster sale today and then went to the dc to grab a bite to eat. Roomer has it that Umass is putting laxitives in the food so that no one gets sick and that the food will just go right through you. Great, that makes me wicked nervous and I definitly would not put it past umass to do such a thing, so I think I am going to stick to the foods that you are not able to put laxitives in. After the dc we came back here so my roomate could finish unpacking her stuff. And here I am, as bored as hell again. Tonight Lewis black is comming and I think I might go see that. Then tonight from 10 to 2am the Hampshire mall is open for only umass students. I really want to go with lora to the mall though so I think I might call her somehow. Oh by the way, I saw Natalie, Kyle, and Jeff from back home. It was good to see famailiar faces up here at Umass.

The girl across the hall....

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 23:20:54 GMT

I am not so lonely anymore. I feel so much better. My roomate is still not here, but hey more room for me. So Gina from across the hall asked me if I wanted to take a walk with her. I of course got wicked excited and jumped up and went out with her. We made friends with this boy named Dave and we all went down the the dc. I ate two chicken nuggets and I feel wicked sick. I gave umass' food a chance and they blew it. Their food is sick. Good thing I brought saltines and popcorn. So we met these other girls (I forgot their names already) and we ate with them and then walked around campus. Then me and Gina headed back to our room. For me to do that I had to conquer the hill again. It was rough, but I did it. My mom called me and I talked to her for a little while. She misses we already lol. And then here I am. At 8:00 we are having a floor meeting for the first time. I am wicked excited to meet people on my floor. There are two wings to my floor and on my wing it is all girls except one room and on the other wing it is all boys except 2 rooms! weird! and then the boys bathroom is on my wing and the girls is on the other wing. it is just so strange. There are movies playing tonight at the campus center, but I am not sure if I want to go. But tomorrow at midnight to 2 in the morning they are playing Big Fish and that is my favorite movie!!! I will have to go. Well I shall update later. Oh I thought I should tell you my 5 senses right now. Smell:my smelly umass room. taste:nasty chicken nuggets See: my fish looking at me, boys throwing around a frisbee, and a parking lot hear: boys screaming, eminem in the room next door. touch:this new keyboard

Still bored

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 20:29:01 GMT

Time to describe this awsome room.
My deck-blue fish in pink rocks, a black dell computer, a black fan, a silver lamp, a nike planner, a picture of blue and white flowers, a basket of shells, a picture of my horse, my cellphone, a picture of little puppies.
My shelves above the desk-my school books, beer pong equipment, more pictures of my horse, a picture of me, my friend and a dolphin, flowers, printer, and notebooks
My walls-cinderblocks painted white, a picture of a mom giraffe kissing her baby, a beach scene poster, a shell shadow box in pink
My eating quarters-a white fridge and a microwave, a mirror standing on top of the microwave, a tissue box on the microwave along with cups and candy
My bed-blue and white flowers all over it complimented with a purple pillow
My floor-a purple rug to match my purple pillow on top of brown tiles, oh and a dead bug in the corner

I am done, because this is dumb

My summer

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 20:12:21 GMT

Well guys, my summer went well. I worked, I went to the Bahamas, I shopped, and I got all my dorm stuff. Now I am sitting her in Orchard Hill (my dorm) with no roomate yet. I am so lonely. A boy just walked by. I wish he had come into my room and say hi...well actually I think he was a dad. I know things will get better becaue thats what everyone keeps telling me, but I am just so lonely right now. My door is open to all and any visiters..well...not any...I hope my roomate comes soon. She said she might now come untill tomorrow, if that is that case I will just fall asleep to NOTHING because she is the one who is bringin the tv. So right now all I have is a computer and a bed and a fish. Well speaking of my room, it is sooo awsome. I love everything about it!! Nothing is wrong with it. The colors are awsome and so are all my decorations. I was walking down to the bathroom today to fill my fish bowl with water and everyone was like omg I have to get a fish. What a good idea. So in turn I am a trendsetter here at Umass!! Speaking of fish though, right now my fish is upside down in the rocks at the bottom. I swear if he dies I will cry because he is all I have right now. Well I have bamboo too, but thats not as cool as the blue fish. Lindsay just called me from California and now I have a semi-smile on my face. She just made me feel a little better. I just went out into the hall and noticed that now many people have moved in yet. So I swill have a little while to think of what I am going to say when I go and introduce myself. The person across the hall just went in her room, and we have yet to meet, and she closed and locked her door. Can you say loser!!! (well she is in the band and her grandmother and mother came and moved all her stuff in yesturday)My roomate is from argentina, well her mother is, and she spends every summer out there and visits her family. I bet my roomate will be awsome. I hope we get along. Is it pathetic to be sitting in your dorm room writing in this for an hour and eating saltines? I think it is. I am a loser. The person across the hall (band person) just had a boy knock on her door and she let him in and then shut the door again. Either a back from home friend or a new friend. Hopefully it is a back from home friend because if it wasn't that means I am a little behind on making friends. This is like kindergarden all over again, without the crayons and glue. I am watching people come up THE HILL right now and it looks like they just ran a marathon. Poor us. Our dorm is on top of this huge hill. Now when I say huge I mean huge. Veritical. Completly verticle. My car almost did not make it up. I would sleep right now to make the time go faster, but that might be a weird thing for my roomate to walk into. I shall stay awake and nibble on saltines. For dinner, as of right now, a frozen dinner in my room will be it. When i update again, I will be happy, I swear.

But your love made me a prisoner and now my heart is doing time....

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 15:30:12 GMT

This weeks latest events
-I am getting a new refridgarator, dish washer, and oven
today
-I am going to the mall on friday with my friend Bridget to
get sandles and a cocktail dress for the upcomming events
in my life.
-I am going tanning and then out to UNO tomorrow with my
friend Erica
-In two weeks, there are 25 DeLisle's comming for my dad's
50th birthday
-I am able to do 6 "power crunches" all at once..thats a
record
-I only owe 300 more dollars on my Bahamas trip
-I decieded I am going to go to prom, regardless if I have a
date or not
-My birthday is in two weeks...rumor has it that someone got
me an obscene birthday gift
-My friend Lindsay is made at me, it has something to do
with a rocking chair and not moving over, this girl needs
to GET over it...BAHAHAHAHAHAHA
-People I do not even talk to went with my friends to get
me this obscene birthday gift...that is semi-weird
-I think I like this boy.......(he's not in my school, dont
bother asking me who)
-I am pooped out...peace out

I can let my hair down, I can say anything....

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 23:24:33 GMT

Liz's last journal entry said it. And to add to it...what did I ever do to anyone? I just dont understand why I have never had a date. I have been kissed, when I was 8, in a tree, but I dont really count that. My mom says some day my fish will come, but it seems as though I am a shark and all the fish stay away from me. I used to never want a "boyfriend." I would just tell myself it sucks and I will just wait for college, but now that it is prom time...I want one.

In the heat of the night we are having a fiesta

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 22:59:55 GMT

So...I am sorry for all of you who check my live journal. I really have been slacking off when it comes to updating. The biggest news I have to share is that I got into UMASS. Now you may not think this is a big deal because it is just Umass, but you're all wrong. They are the only school around here that offers an animal science degree and that is what I want. I am going to have such a blast...parties, keg stands, a dorm room, and hopefully a lover. haha a lover. When I found out about UMASS I was in my writing class and I just started screaming "Oh my god, oh my god!!!" I was sooo happy. I think I might bring the class cookies because they have listened to me whine about umass for the past two months. I think I owe them something. On Thursday I had to babysit this girl and her dog has a wicked bad ear infection and there is so much fluid in the ear that when the dog walks around the house of shakes its head you hear fluid swishing around. I felt so bad for the dog. I yelled at the girl I babysit and told her she better tell her mom to clean the dogs ears. Then this past Friday was awsome. First I hear about umass, then I got measured for my cap and gown, then I went to the gym and got an excellent workout, the I rented Dirty Dancing and watched it with a friend. Then today, first I went to Dave's Pet Soda and Pet Food city and looked at wicked cute hamsters but opted not to get one, then I went to the gym, then I went to the farm and saw my horse (which when I let outside she found the biggest mud muddle and rolling around in in...I was not a happy owner), now I am writing here. Tonight I am going to see Dirty Dancing-Sevanna Nights. I am excited. I was going to go to Leanne's party and break it up, but i decided that would be kinda harsh considering I am friends with her. But that would be pretty funny. Oh yeah, and I know these people who are getting me a wicked gross birthday present and I think it will be wicked funny at first, but I dont think I am going to want to take it home with me. If my parents ever found it I would be the laughing stock of my family. For those of you who want to know what they are getting me, just think jelly. Well I must get ready for the movie...see ya'll later.

Ut oh....

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 19:26:03 GMT

I just took an online "quiz" and it said that I will never have sex in my life. Omg. This has got to be a joke.

Somebody is going hurt someone, before the night is through.....

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 18:53:31 GMT

Something is seriously wrong with me. Today I was in such a crappy mood. It all started with my mom telling me I could not use her car to act as a u-haul to bring my rocking chair to school. So I practiclly had to smush my chair to get it to fit into my car. Then I get to school and for the past 2 months me and Heather C. have been asking each other everyday if we heard from UMASS yet, well today finally not only did Heather hear, but so did Elaina. OKay so now the whopping grand total of people that have been accepted is up to 100 (well almost). But I am very happy for all of those who got into this magnificant school! You all are very fortunate!!! Then I go through the day blah blah blah and then I get to freaken French class. This kid...I am not going to mention any names, but he was throwing "glue balls" at people in my class, mainly at me. He thought it was the fucking funniest thing in the world. Well after he launched about a million of them in my direction I got so freaken pissed off that I was like "Can you please stop fucking throwing glue at me." Well the teacher definitly knew what was going on and all he said was "I want to appologize to you Katie for having to put up with him." I just kinda glared at the teacher. This teacher, not mentioning any names, is such a wimp. He does not have the balls to kick this kid out of class...well well well if this little "glue ball" episode happens again then I will personnaly open up a 12 pack of whoop-ass on this kid. So now I am home. I think I want to see that God movie tomorrow. I heard it is amazing (from someone who got into UMASS). Oh yeah I think I forgot to mention that I will be rocking in a chair for 6 hours tonight. I was excited, but not anymore. Amanda F. signed me up for this "rock-a-thon" and now she is not even going herself!!! Well anywho I better get myself drunk off my ass so that this rock-a-thon will go by pretty fast. JD here I come. Perhaps I will update later.....103 days till I go to the bahamas.

Well here it is...

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 14:32:37 GMT

I am in my writing college and I was going to write my paper, but I though about it and I beleive that writing about my dear friends are far important. Liz B. (a.k.a Blizz) is sitting across from me so I think I should discuss my relationahip with her first. I first met her in one of my classes this year. From the beginning I knew we had a good friendship. She makes me laugh whenever I am down. She is the only person who I am able to tell my deepest darkest secret too. Our friendship bloomed this year when we both liked two boys that were in our class. K.H. and K.D., T.D. and L.B. I hope me and Liz stay friends forever. I bet we will because even when we go off to college, I have confidence that I will see her at Camp Shepard. She is a counseler there and I am a horseback riding instructor. I have seen her there for about 4 years now, but just this year we became friends so I will make sure to go out of my way to say hi to her. She's great.
Now for Leanne. I save the best for last. Jk. I met her this year too. She's been great to me. She has given me much confidence in life. Until this year I have not had many friends (I mean I was a true loser). I have had never had as many true friends as I have had this year. I love them all and they all mean so much to me. It is too bad that I did not meet them all until this year. Untill this year, I kinda didnt want to live anymore. I mean I really had nothing to look forward to in life. I definitly am glad I stuck around, I am having the time of my life. My life was so far down that the only way to go was up. I think what happened was that I decieded that I was not going to be shy anymore. I said fuck it and got to meet new people. I am so glad I did, or else I would still be a snail stuck in their shell.
Anyways back to Leanne and Liz. They are a few of the most important people in my life. We never hang out though outside of school, which really makes me sad, but I think in due time we were be "outside of school buddies."

My first journal entry.

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 01:52:23 GMT

So. I just wanted to let you all know that Erica is a really good friend. So far she is the only person that when I talk to online I actually laugh out loud. Like everybody always says "LOL" but I know for a fact that they are not really laughing out loud. They are all LIARS. Anywho, I just got back from the gym. I did a whole 40 minutes on cardio!! It may not seem like a lot, but I am severly overweight so it was like a marathon to me. But when I got home, I ate some honeydew mellon, I probably shouldn't have, but I could not resist the cool crisp mellon, so I ate it. Well folks that all for today. I beleive I will be writing tomorrow during writing...at approximatly 10:15. Well good night, god bless, and dont forget your rubbers.